I may or may not be going nuts. I just wanna eat my pills and never wake up.
Its a disorder not a decision.
Recovery is a conscious choice. It’s not something brought about by repeat hospital visits and pills and forced therapy sessions. Those things only supplement it. But what recovery really is is a conscious choice to wake up tomorrow and want to live. It’s a choice to drive across a bridge and not want to jump into the water, but to admire the view.
Thought thoughts thoughts ugh. Freaked out at the amt of carbs and chicken. All these shouldn’t be scaring me gah fml.
utterly insecure, paranoid. over thinking? maybe. just feeling crappy.
Honestly i don’t know why I’m living anymore.